There’s a huge truth I need to get off my chest: I’m resenting reading. It’s the mid-year mark (well, a month late) and I’m starting to not read books. I can tell because I would rather spend my days with the TV on and laid out on the couch. Whenever I feel like I resent reading, I take a look at my goals either for the year or the month and find the culprit to my despair. What is going on that’s making me unhappy to read?
I think I’ve narrowed it down to one big thing: my reading challenge.
So I was excited because this year I was pushing myself to read 100 books. At the beginning of the year, it made a lot of sense. 100 books means about 10 books a month. Since I was already averaging 8 books a month, I figured I could probably just tack on an extra book or two to hit 100 before the end of the year. No problem!
What I didn’t realize is that reading this month is actually burning me out. With little time to think about what I just read, I would pick up another book and then tell myself I’ll catch up on my thoughts later. The process has made me delay reviews and sometimes not even review them.
Secondly, I’ve just picked up a job as a book reviewer so that adds a few more books to my monthly reading list and I feel like I’m inundating myself with way too much reading. I know, how can someone who loves to read think they’re reading too much? I don’t know.
So I decided I’m done trying to read 100 books a year. The reason isn’t because I can’t do it. I think it’s very possible for me to do it, but I think that for my own reading enjoyment having really aggressive goals like this takes away the fun of reading and points the focus on completing the challenge. I would much rather read 10 amazing books in a year than read 100 books I squeezed in between all the other activities I love.
Granted, anyone who can comfortably read 100 books or more a year should most definitely do it. I don’t want to deter anyone from their own goals, but I think the bigger learn I’ve gotten from this is that reading is a personal experience. I know I could read 100 books if I really pushed myself, but I’m not in the business of doing that anymore (or creating any monthly TBRs. Sheesh.)
What’s your reading challenge this year? Do you plan on breaking your own goals or just reading and seeing your outcome?