February 2019’s Mid-Month Checkin

I hate to admit it, but February hasn’t been kind to me. We’re now in the middle of the month and my reading hasn’t been going so well. I’ve read…one book.

In some small way, I’m angry. I’m angry at myself for not focusing and reading as much as I can. I’m angry that I’ve put down two books this month and struggling to get through another book right now. What is with me?

As a book blogger, there aren’t many breaks you can take. You take a break from blogging and it’s like you didn’t even exist. You take a break from reading and the books just keep piling up on your nightstand before it all tumbles down. So taking a break feels a little cumbersome.

As a reader, this frustrates me. I want to read. I sit down with my tea and snacks and my book and I make a concerted effort to read, but I end up on my phone. I end up talking to my husband. I end up playing video games and the book goes another day without a page being turned.

I know I should be kind to myself, but if I’m being honest I haven’t been in a good space mentally for a month now. I’ve been stressed from finding a job and it’s put me off from reading books. I’m not a control person, but I do try to keep myself together. I feel like someone who put buttercream too soon after the cakes came out the oven. I’m melting in a way and just trying to push myself together and it’s not working.

So right now my slump is looking pretty disastrous and I wanted to be honest about that here. Things aren’t going as planned and my brain just needs the rest. I’ll be back next week, I think.

What have you read this month so far?

11 thoughts on “February 2019’s Mid-Month Checkin

  1. Ufff I’m a slow reader so in a way it’s better that my money don’t come from that. 😁
    I believe that you are putting too much pressure on yourself. If you need a break take one. And if the books that you choose don’t attract you put them down and choose another one. Maybe you are not mentally prepared for them at this moment.

    I’ve been struggling to find a job too lately so I know that it’s very stressful and tiring. Once you have that figured out everything will be a bit easier.
    I hope you will feel better soon. Don’t worry, your followers will still be here when you come back.

    I read Dawn by Virginia C. Andrews and now I’m struggling to finish Life After Death, the evidence by Dinesh D’Souza and it’s a bit of a struggle ’cause I’m trying to keep my mind as open as possible but boy ohhh boy it’s hard. 😃

    Anyhow, I hope you’ll come back soon. 💕

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    1. Thanks so much for the reminder. I know I’m being hard on myself, but when you’ve got nothing else going on you start to wonder if there’s anything at all. I hope things get better for you and your job search. ❤

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  2. No worries, I’m right there with you. I’ve only read about half a book this month and I’m super behind on everything else related to blogging and reading that I need to do. I hope the rest of February goes more smoothly for you, but even if it doesn’t, don’t worry. You’ll get back into the swing of things eventually! It just takes time 😀

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  3. Reading can be tough when you’re stressed. I know from experience that my concentration levels drop dramatically during times of stress and it can be difficult to put in the focus and mental effort required to get into a book.
    I hope your job search goes well. It’s definitely not an easy thing. Don’t be too hard on yourself if you’re still doing things that make you happy and help to destress, even if those things aren’t reading or blogging. It’s ok to take a break.
    I’m a firm believer in moving on to the next book if the current one isn’t working. Maybe some manga or graphic novels might help with your slump. But taking a break is great too.
    Be kind to yourself 💖

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  4. I think slumps are sort of the like the “down rails” of roller coasters. Pretty soon you’ll be back up and reading more than your heart can handle. Just gotta ride that wave. ❤️ Bloggers put an immense amount of pressure on themselves. Be gentle, sweets.

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  5. Sending you warm thoughts! There is nothing wrong with a slow month every now and then, soon enough you will find the book or day that sets you right back on track. Also, you will not disappear/become irrelevant in the blogger world if you take a break! At least, I’ll still be here – just found you and have to say your photos are beautiful! (And the writing of course, haha.) Hope the second half of February has been a little bit better for you!

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